March 2012
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Update:
Curtis was here 15JAN12. We haven’t talked since. It’s over, I’m done. I would just really like my stuff back, but have no way to get a hold of him. He changed his number. It hurts, like hell, but I’m done with it all.
On a better note, I’m joining the National Guard. I’ve gone through getting tests and paperwork from my doctor, stating my asthma has ceased to...
January 2012
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Everyone thinks he’s such an asshole, because I complain about all the bad so much. No one knows how good things were. So everytime someone else tells me to break up with him, or insults him, I just want to yell at them. I rather have someone stay quiet than say that. People think I may be stupid when it comes to this relationship. And yeah, I’d agree. But love is stupid. It causes...
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Taada.
And just like that he walks back into my life and assumes he’s done nothing wrong. Well, good news I guess. We’re still together. But I don’t know if I want to be with him anymore… He’s not the person I fell in love with. Everything is changed. He’s been in Washington for 2 weeks already supposedly, and just decided I wasn’t worth contacting apparently....
I've become troubled.
It has become obvious Curtis and I are over. But I just can’t let go of what we had. Or what I thought we had. I should just call up to NASWI and see if he’s working to contact him. But he actually could be deployed, and I’m chicken. Not that I’ve believed he has been deployed for the last 7 months. I have his station’s number, so I could. I just want my stuff back....
December 2011
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classicemily asked: (Part 2) BUT you deserve a man who will call you the moment they can. There shouldn't be a twilight area if you two are truly and deeply in love. I know you care for him, and I am sure he cared for you, too. But deployments can change people. I am not saying to break up, but I am saying to look at your situation and decide what's best for you. Is this the kind of life you want to live?
classicemily asked: Hey girl, I know you're having a rough time and I thought I would put in my two cents. It seems like you two barely talk and you are in this twilight area of are we together or not?" And I know how that feels, believe me. That at least if you aren't broken up, it's okay. But actually, you deserve better than that. You deserve a MAN who will treat you like you're the only...
Well...
I can’t say the days are getting easier. I wish he’d just break it off already, if that’s what he’s going to do. For a while my mind consisted of nothing but thoughts of him. So this hurts. Being ignored by someone you love… Its painful. His own friend even, said I deserve better. I believe I deserve better than how he’s been treating me, and its not possible...
November 2011
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Pregnancy scare...
From when he was here on October 20th. My mom suspects, I believe. I think I am. My doctor thinks he knows I’m not. I’m showing symptoms of early pregnancy, but turns out its supposedly a reaction to medications I’m taking again.
My doctor took a urine sample and the results came back negative, but that CAN be wrong. I’ll know within the next week. :/
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Talking with his friend made me remember...
Why put up with lies and nonsense. Why I put up with his job and him not being able to ever put me first. With the fights and distance.
I love him. I really do.
I hope we can get passed this.
I think he’s lying. About everything.
If so I’m ending it, I’m done tolerating all the lies.
He has to prove himself if he still wants to keep this relationship.
He was on skype for a little while. We talked for 8 minutes and 16 seconds. It was good to hear his voice, that voice I love so much. I asked him when he’d be back his responds; “when hell freezes over I conclude.” My reply? “My conclusion too.”
I just want him back and things to be good.
And for a moment, I swear I can smell him...
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October 2011
81 posts
Today marks 6 months with my boyfriend, and all...
The saddest moment of him being gone so far...
The other day, in the middle of Safeway, I suddenly smelled him. His own smell that I love and miss. I looked around. It was heart breaking, the expectation.
